I never seem to escape a day without neglecting one aspect of my life or another. Whether that's people, university, my job, my family, myself..
Maybe it's priorities. Maybe life is about sacrifices. Constant overwhelming, overbearing sacrifices, but I don't like it very much at all. It fills my heart and head with pressure and responsibility. I sometimes think I have too much in my heart and so much in my life but it never seems to balance out evenly. 'Balance' sounds so easy but it appears to be a delicate fine art which perhaps takes the longevity of an enriched and experienced lifetime to painstakingly perfect.
Is it even achievable? I don't know. Right now, I've said no to a job and casting tomorrow because I need to be at a lecture and seminar at University which will most probably be useless anyway, seeing as assignment deadlines are ever so quickly approaching so presumably all necessary material has already been covered.
I hate to let people down.
I wish I could give all I have to everyone around me. To everything and everyone I try to commit to. I wish I could give it all.
I am neglecting university work lately. This shall change now. My free time during the day (If I have any free time!) is spent in the library working. Just my perfectionist traits mean that work is slow work in progress, and it really is difficult to see any progress being made.
So, I'm going to keep on keeping on :)
Positive energy and such.