Tuesday, 28 June 2011

Eat, pray, love

'The easiest, most fundamentally human way to say it is that I have put on weight. I exist more now than I did four months ago. I will leave Italy noticeably bigger than when I arrived here. And I will leave with the hope that the expansion of one person - the magnification of one life, is indeed an act of worth in this world. Even if that life, just this one time, happens to be nobody's but my own.'
Elizabeth Gilbert - Eat, Pray, Love.

This is not the most random quote I could have picked out to share as it may seem. It is however, ironic in that I am here in Japan with my modelling agency ordering me to lose weight, and I am currently mid-way through reading a book about a woman who travels across the world on a mission to find her soul (and while spending four months in Italy, has gained twenty five pounds, and appears to be almost celebrating her weight gain in such a way that I had never thought was possible.)

I actually saw this book when it was released last year as a film, before I decided to read it. It has taken me until this trip to bring the book with me and read while we are travelling to and from castings. There is only so much of my iPod that I can listen to all day long, and sometimes the only chat that's going on in the car is Russian gossip, which quite frankly, I do not understand a single word of! So, the best thing to do for now is to engross myself in a book that's easy to read, quite lighthearted, but holds some form of sentimental meaning.

I have a feeling I will have worked my way through a mountain of books by the time I am finished here..


  1. That is nothing but a good use of your time :) that's one thing i love about being away in a different country, I seem to get through books three times as fast.

    As for your agency, do they know about the ED? I suppose it wouldn't really matter regardless. But you know like I do that you are tall, slim, and in terms of the fashion industry, do NOT need to lose weight. You eat healthily, you can work both on catwalk and in photography, so try not to let it get to you. I know thats a lot easier for me to say than for someone to do, but you just need to look at people like Crystal Renn etc, to know that emaciated does not necessarily mean successful, beautiful, and well known in e modeling world.

  2. Silly iPad! Fs. Hahaha. Love love love xxxxxxxxxxxx

  3. I loved the movie and I LOVED that quote.
    It really hit me that, hell yes, what matters more.

    And I hope that what I have said to you, with regards to this being about experience of your life vs ED.

    I am so proud of you angel.
    I miss you madly. xxxxx