"Perfection is not just about control. It's also about letting go. Surprise yourself so you can surprise the audience. Transcendence! Very few have it in them."
We went to see Black Swan on Friday. A film that was much anticipated by myself and a fair few others. Goodness, it was absolutely bloody fantastic. Incredible and beautifully upsetting yet ever so realistic. The bare bones of what is potentially a twisted and truthfully mad world is laid out for all to see. I think it takes a certain type of person to really understand and appreciate the film as a whole. Definitely a thought-provoker but also it brings a lot of memories to the surface. Quite surprisingly I can relate a hell of a lot of what I saw to my own life.
Well, I say surprisingly. Not so surprisingly really. Perfectionism. A trait commonly found in 'people like me' Oh my days, I hate that phrase. Along with the word 'control'. Bloody control. What is that?? Apparently I try to control certain aspects of my life, when otherwise life feels very much out of control. These same rules suggest that my character trait of perfectionism only adds to the likelihood that I will develop these problems. Problems that are deeply set within me and are terribly hard to overcome. Apparently. I hate the professionals sprouting all their knowledge at me. All the numbers, all the statistics, and all the facts and figures and symptoms of my supposed illness. I probably hate it because the truth is usually a hard one to face.
Perfectionism is a constant battle. It's never quite reached, and ironically every single aspect of a person is eventually destroyed on this endless mission to be perfect. We don't even know what being perfect means. Not really.. We have an ideal. We think we'll be 'happy' when we reach that ideal. But that's the trap.. we will never reach it. Because there's always one more step you can take. Another new plan to better yourself.
The sad thing is, I have been told this many times before.. Beauty is in art. Beauty is in letting go, living life, being free, and true acceptance of yourself. It's about trusting yourself enough to fully let go and live. Bearing your soul to the world and not being afraid of what might be seen, because that, is the beautiful and perfect being.
Life is to be embraced