It's been a full day at uni today, and I am tired. I failed to get even an hours sleep last night, which consequently resulted in me spending today in a rather zombie-like state. The reason as to why I spent the night awake? I really don't know. I am not a fan of dwelling on the past. What might have been, what could have been, and what should have been. When will we learn that the past is exactly that - the past. Acknowledge it, learn from it, and move on!
I got through the day, with no help from caffeine. Just delicious green tea with a hint of jasmine.
With the tiredness cast aside, I've enjoyed today. I am one of those rare people who doesn't mind acknowledging that they enjoy being in uni. Don't get me wrong, give me a ticket to explore the world for the next few years and I wouldn't give it a second thought. I'd be off and out of the country faster than I've ever moved before. But for now, in the here and now, I am enjoying university. It is brilliant to feel at home in a course that eight months ago I was so terrified to begin. I'm glad I did.. Because things are only going from strength to strength, improving with every decision I make.
I am a firm believer that good things happen to good people but we can't just lounge around wallowing in self-pity wishing for things to be a different way. We must be proactive. We must engage with ourselves, our thoughts and feelings, and with the world we are so closely connected to. Empowerment. How can we expect anything to change unless we have an inner drive? Meaning that if we believe in positivity from the inside, we will attract the greater things that we deserve.