'I read this article about obsessive ruminators. People who can't let go of things, but they are also the kind of writers who re write and get deeper and better. And that's what you have to do to get excellent creatively. You don't just write War and Peace in one draft. That kind of fascination was part of my prodigiousness as a child. It was probably beyond my years but, I was drawn to empathise with that kind of darkness. It made me happy, and it was a beautiful solidarity place that was just mine, that no body else could touch. But it's also really fucking lonely, which is incredibly hard to manage. So these two things exist and pull at you, so you get addicted to surviving it over and over again. Because it makes you feel alive'
Jodie Foster interview, 2011.
Jodie speaks about her childhood, and how being drawn to empathise with sad, dark, and almost dangerous aspects was most likely far beyond what any child is emotionally equip to handle. Nevertheless it builds a foundation and an unheard of creative ability, which is rather rare to come across in a person who outwardly appears so content and calm. She likens it to a sense of isolation, but an isolation that is used as protection . It is a lovely place, but the happiness stems from feeling alone, and an ability to create a piece so real, and so far from yourself, that you almost forget who you are. It will be recognized as unique. This is a lovely feeling, because it is an addiction. A feeling of survival, that makes a person feel alive in a world that otherwise seems like a one-way road to nowhere.
I love this interview. It's strange because I find myself relating to a lot of her words.